and when it rains, it pours

Hold your head
in your hands,
and just let it go.

Hey,
it's okay.
No none's here.

famous blue raincoat

by Leonard Cohen

It's four in the morning, the end of december
I'm writing you now just to see if you're better
New york is cold, but I like where I'm living
There's music on clinton street all through the evening.

I hear that you're building your little house deep in the desert
You're living for nothing now, I hope you're keeping some kind of record.

Yes, and jane came by with a lock of your hair
She said that you gave it to her
That night that you planned to go clear
Did you ever go clear?

Ah, the last time we saw you you looked so much older
Your famous blue raincoat was torn at the shoulder
You'd been to the station to meet every train
And you came home without lili marlene

And you treated my woman to a flake of your life
And when she came back she was nobody's wife.

Well I see you there with the rose in your teeth
One more thin gypsy thief
Well I see jane's awake --

She sends her regards.
And what can I tell you my brother, my killer
What can I possibly say?
I guess that I miss you, I guess I forgive you
I'm glad you stood in my way.

If you ever come by here, for jane or for me
Your enemy is sleeping, and his woman is free.

Yes, and thanks, for the trouble you took from her eyes
I thought it was there for good so I never tried.

And jane came by with a lock of your hair
She said that you gave it to her
That night that you planned to go clear

-- sincerely, l. cohen

...

"I wanted to be a man.
I didn't want her to be a woman."

magnolia

...and the book says we may be through with the past, but the past is not through with us!

barf

disgruntled

I don't know what the big deal is about brushing your teeth. It's like a retirement account, very boring to me. I went three days with the same clothes, or Id walk around the street shirtless with my dogs, not caring who sees my hairy body. Everyday I was surprised and impressed at where I woke up. I tried to masterbate, but I could barely concentrate as reality swung and missed at me. Jerking off to porn was like a TV dinner I didn't need before sleep - it was dull and drowsy, it lacked the the rapture of pounding raw meat, it was beer instead of methamphetamine. I was fed up with this day's existence, but I couldn't stop laughing at the thought that someone actually sat down and wrote this dialogue, and here I was clinging to his art. I would argue with myself, "concentrate, asshole!". I'm the kind of guy that will give himself a black eye and a fat lip. Then I stood in front of the mirror- this one I hadn't punched out yet- and let the facuet run. I gotta piss, hold on. Well, that was only a couple driplets- why are you wasting our time?

Then I cupped my hands. I splashed it all over my face, and I felt sparklets in my hair seeping behind my ear then carefree sliiding down my neck. I let the water take me, my skin, my soul with all its purity. I tried to tell myself that I love you, and the path you're on is really hurting us.

He goes, "fuck off, loser."

...

I think it has to do
with the serotonin or dopamine
levels in your brain.

No matter what you do,
if you feel depressed

call it a come-down
but I think your brain
is just worn out.

bad fish

by Sublime

When you grab a hold of me
You tell me that I'll never be set free
I'm a parasite,
creep and crawl I step into the night.
Two pints of booze
Tell me are you a badfish too? Are you a badfish too?
Ain't got no money to spend
I know the night will never end
Lord knows I'm weak
Won't somebody get me off of this reef

Baby your a big blue whale
Grab the reef when all duck diving fails
I swim but wish I never learned
The water's too polluted with germs
I dive deep when it's ten feet overhead
Grab the reef underneath my bed
Ain't got no quarrels with god
Ain't got no time to grow old
Lord knows I'm weak
Won't somebody get me off of this reef

Ain't got no quarrels with God
Ain't got no time to grow old
Lord knows I'm weak
Won't somebody get me off of this reef

Forever27

Amy, Jim, Jimi, and Janis
talking in a room, Kurt's smoking.
Bradley Nowell, someone puts his arm around him,
and he says I miss my dog.
And then Chris Farley runs around with his fat ass,
just smiling.
"Hey, asshole, you're late!"
And then he starts making them all laugh.

a sentimental journey

Think I have a problem...

Dear Diary

ah Dammit! It's you again? This fuckin guy...

give 'em a brain and this is what happens

My dogs have gotten used to me walking them,
wearing them out on the long trek to the liquer store,
cupping my hands so they can have some water.
Lately, I haven't felt like leaving the house.
They go, "Hey man, what the fuck?"
I go, "Shut up, dogs, at least I don't microwave you."

That motherfucker should die!
No trial. No jury.
No fuckin greedy defense attorney.
Ahhh! just let me get my hands on him.

Do you ever read shit on the news,
And imagine what it would be like
to be a puppy with unconditional love,
just tortured, tortured till it dies?
it probably clawed and barked and screamed, whimpered.

Humans are the most disgusting things.
At least animals kill to eat.
Come, Armageddon, Come!

At the end all that I could say,
at least that dog's not suffering anymore.
This cockersucker, after all his appeals
Will still be able to jerk off in his cell.
Hopefully there's true justice inside,
waiting for him.

freefall

My bones are the only thing
keeping my organs in place.

A land more violent and varied than our own

They must have not heard of the woman getting gangraped
by two men in front of her husband and children.

Then the daughter.
Then burning flesh.

The sea will flush 'em all away.
sweats chills shakes
loss of appetite puking
anxious climbing through the windows
liver esphogus kidneys
faint of heart
rapid REM thumping
then I'm up
fetal position sweats and chills
then semi dream
thump thump

(feet shuffling)