i wanted to go to a meeting, at least there would be people there.

i had to no way to get there, the bus routes wouldn't work 

i thought it a waste to pay for a cab

it's funny though, id spend 60 bucks for a cab just to go down there and get a tiny speckle

it's too late now, anyway

so i'll just sit here

i won't eat chocolate

im trying to eat healthy

my friend's drunk

he hasn't contacted me for weeks

i don't blame him last time i insulted him

he says come down here anddrink 

hey asshole, how the fuck am i going to get there?

did you forget that night?

he says quitting is for losers

sure the thought crossed my mind

but it's going to feel like putting poison in my body

maybe i am exaggerating,

maybe it's not a big deal 

either way, it's not really calling me right now

i'm alone in this

i will always be alone with it